SUCCESS Doesn’t Define WORTH

SUCCESS Doesn’t Define WORTH

I had to strive to try to get the attention from my parents and try to be the best one in the family. So a lot of my identity growing up was based off of my ability to perform in sports and to be the best person, to be the best athlete that I could. Jacob Luggage was the youngest of four children. He grew up in a competitive environment, and his Catholic upbringing shaped his view of God. I’d say that I was a very religious person. So I felt like that I had to be the best person that I could possibly be all the time so that way I would gain God’s approval and gain God’s attention and gain his love. Attending a private school with his three older siblings provided Jacob an early opportunity to join the party scene. My needs for attention and my need to stand out all the time transitioned right into the party life, and that became the next way that I was getting attention from people, which was partying as much as I possibly could. Jacob gained popularity and he still excelled in sports and school. His appearance on the outside, however, was in direct opposition to what he was feeling on the inside. The more popular you get, the more that you need. The more drugs that I used, the more drugs that I actually needed to try to fill that void. I constantly tried to be something and be somebody that I wasn’t. As I tried to gain that love and that attention and fill that void in my life, I continuously lost myself even more and more in that process. Jacob’s performance in sports landed him a golf scholarship to a nearby college. I knew that at the college golf level that I was going to have drug tests and it was going to be much more stricter on my behavior and the partying so I actually did really well for the first couple months. I was giving it a really good effort to try to be better and try to take advantage of the opportunity to go to college. Despite his efforts, Jacob got drunk at a party and used marijuana. I very much remember sitting in my dorm room that afternoon having to call my parents and tell them that I had just failed a drug test in college for smoking weed knowing that they weren’t able to send their other kids to college and knowing that it was such a blessing. It was such a privilege for me to go to college. That was a really, really hard moment for me to do that. His drug and alcohol use cost him two college scholarships. He left school and pursued mixed martial arts fighting where he again found success and attention. I had a lot of recognition for being a fighter. That was my identity. It helped fill that void for the need for attention all the time. It helped fill that void in my heart. There was still I can remember many nights even after winning a fight and being successful the way that I thought I should be and doing the things that I thought I should, many restless nights laying in bed of just that feeling of hopelessness and that feeling of depression and not knowing why I felt that way. Jacob’s introduction to pain medication began legally with prescriptions for numerous injuries and surgeries, but it soon took over his life. I was physically very much addicted to it, but also mentally addicted to it as well. All that feeling of depression and fear and anxiety that have developed throughout my life it would relieve those feelings. Whenever I was doing pain medicine I felt like I was invincible and I wasn’t fearful and I wasn’t depressed and I wasn’t scared. As the drug use escalated, Jacob lost his job and his home. He moved in with his drug dealer and started working for him. I’d gotten down to about 119 pounds, which is really, really skinny. I was really physically in a bad spot there. It was destroying me as a person on the inside to where the fear and the pressure and everything in life, it became too much. I no longer can handle it even despite the pain medicine. After being awake for two weeks straight, Jacob sneaked into his parents’ shed and slept there for three days. When his parents discovered him, they took him to Home of Grace, a Christian-based recovery program. Jacob was still going through withdrawals from drugs when he experienced his first taste of God’s love. I got woke up one afternoon and there was about 30 guys had come into my room. 30 other clients and a couple of the staff members. They had all gathered in my room and they all started to lay their hands on me and began to pray for me. That was a very profound moment for me because I couldn’t understand why all these people were in my room. I was at the lowest of the low point of my life at that point and I had nothing to offer. He began his journey to freedom with loving Christians who showed him who Jesus is. It all clicked one night in Chapel. The pastor that was there preaching he gave an altar call after he did his sermon. I knew that I needed to get up from my seat that night and make my way to the altar and I needed to get down on my knees and give my life to Christ. That’s exactly what I did. I got up and I barely made my way up there. I was still very physically sick. I got down on my knees and I hit my knees and I just told God that, “God, if you can use my life “use it, I’m done. “I am defeated.” I knew that God had saved my soul in that moment and I knew that I no longer had to fight him anymore. I didn’t have to fight to gain the love and to gain the attention from God. That God just loved me for the person that I was. Jacob’s life changed quickly. After completing time at Heartland Man’s Recovery Program he went on to get his degree in Biblical Studies. He now preaches at recovery centers across the country and spreads his hope in Jesus wherever he can. I get to live and have an abundant life today being a true follower of Jesus. Jesus is, to me, the perfect example of how we are to live our lives. How we are to humbly lay down our lives every single day. My goal and desire is to be an effective participant in the Church of God. It’s given me the blessing and privilege to be able to speak and preach all over the United States at different recovery centers to men and women that are going through the same thing that I was going through and to really show them that there’s a hope and there’s a future. God wants to do the same thing in their life that God has done in my life.

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  2. This is awesome!! Glad he found the light in Christ Jesus! That is the only way to be whole, free, and joyful. Nothing can fulfill you like the presence of the Lord! Hallelujah!!

  3. As a human being, you are worth more than any amount of money. Oftentimes, Jesus didn't know where he would lay his head. In today's world, that would be considered a failure. Jesus was a success.

  4. Wow thank you lord God for saving me ! I would have been dead if he didn’t wake me from addiction! Now I have dangerous faith & I am happy to hear more God moments of our lord invading more lives!!! Yes

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